why must you be so smart?

but as i thought through, whether you are in the through-train programme, taking A lvls straight without taking O lvls, studying a total different syllabus, i still won't end up in the same JC as you. because you will still do very well for your O's. so.. let God test my patience and LET'S MEET IN UNIVERSITY!

 

 

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my mum revealed the truth yesterday. the fact was, my 2 hamsters died, not given away. i was only left with 3, and now Peggy and Sweety died, leaving Whitey alone in this world.

 

i was very traumatized by the news. apparently my mum put all the blame on me. saying, everyday im oh-so-busy with my band, coming home everyday around 6-7pm, including saturdays. because starting of january my mum started working and i am supposed to be the one in charge of the household. however i didn't even have the time to change my hamsters bedding which haven't been change since starting of january when my mum last changed.

 

and i AM very upset.

 

indeed i didn't have the time. it was since don't know when that i last take a look at my hamsters, last played with them, feed them. now that they are gone, i don't even remember when was the last time i touched them, or at least take a look at them. i haven't even upload their pictures, their baby pictures when Peggy just gave birth to the 7 hamsters. and now out of 8 including Peggy, i am only left with 1, the rest were gone.

 

my mum noticed a rotting smell when she woke up 2am in the morning and then realised 2 of them were dead. we don't even know the reason why they died. but its most likely because of their dirty cages that they fell ill and died. and i don't even know that. plus i don't even know how they suffer before they actually breath their last breathe.

 

and there are many stories that i 'didn't have the time' to blog about. like how  the previous hamster died (now i even forgot its name) and i promised God not to play computer for 2 weeks until SA2 was over. which i managed to keep my promise and even made me inprove in my results.

 

and how Sweety escaped death. it was dropping so much hair until we could see its wrinkly body. we thought it was going to die as it also became so skinny until like there was only the skin covering the bone. but we prayed for it and feed it with many fruits that she grew back its hair and became really fat. but now she is dead.

 

 

        as i am typing this i am crying.

 

 

if only i had planned my time properly, which my father constantly remind me of, and paid more attention to my hamsters. if only i was not busy with band band band and band everyday. if only i was not so busy with my serial dramas. if only. it would not have happened.

 

i don't even know when my hamsters died. but one night when i was doing my work, a picture of my hamster being crushed came into my mind. i think its at that very moment my hamsters were dying, and they are trying to let me know that they are leaving.

 

i had never expected my chinese new year gift to be the death of my hamsters. now that i am only left with Whitey ( its black in colour so i named it whitey ) i will take good care of it.

 

 

 

 

 

 

happy chinese new year.

 

 

 

I have been too busy watching It Started With A Kiss. (er juo ju zhi wen)

 

I searched tru my archieves.. but I did not mention about me watching They Kiss Again (er juo ju 2 wen) (sequel to It Started With A Kiss). I actually watched the sequel first, which is They Kiss Again, I watched it during the december hols. Hm.. I am very sure I would blog about such things.. But don't have leh. Weird.

 

Hm.. Lets say I am obsessed with that show. Hm.. Lets say I am also obsessed with Jiang Zhi Shu (the male main character) (Zheng Yuan Chang aka nickname Xiao Zong). Hello?! I am obsessed with him alongside with MR. :)

 

I decided to watch They Kiss Again after finishing It Started With A Kiss.. but because I just watched it not long ago.. I still remember the story. Hais. And it made me very sian. I stop watching after the first episode.. but I just decided to continue watching it.

 

Enough.

 

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Band.

 

Now.. is the process to SYF? Is it? I am not sure. But one thing I am certain, we are not allowed to borrow our instruments home and I can't practice my clarinet.

 

WooHoo! Yayness! Hurrah! I finally have juniors! Hm.. I hope they are humble, and respect me as a senior (hohoho) and really love the clarinet and band. :) A whole new experience awaits you!

 

 

Digressdigressdigress.

 

Yesterday went cyling with Lyn and Siya, because there was no sectionals for me.

 

First, went to AMKhub to eat. Then to my house, taught SiYa rhythm, theories. And then study 2 page of the science textbook.. and off we go to cycle!

 

Serangoon. The usual place. Hohoho! Well.. disappointed with the results, as usual. :(

 

 

LYN FELL DOWN! hahahahaha! I was right behind her and I got a very clear view! Because there was this edge, I don't know how to say lah! So lets just call it the edge.. it was quite high, you need to cycle really fast to ride through it. SiYa managed to cycle over it but she knew its a very risky spot hence she pointed to the place and told Lyn, who was right behind her.. 'Careful, later fall down' in chinese lah!

 

Then Lyn fell.

 

 

Was fun.. haven't been cycling.. esp to serangoon, for a logn time already. HA!

 

hehe, A BRAND NEW YEAR! ooo, 2009. felt so sad for 2008, it died. HAHAHA! anyway, Happy New Year everybody! :] will upload pictures of me = AhJes, AhTing, AhMei and AhRon pictures, playing the sparks (?) and rollerblading! if you read my blog often you will know who are the four 'Ah' people. hahah.

 

today is first day of school! i was so excited that i could not sleep well the night before. it always happen to me. hahah! so because of my new hairstyle, when i step into the class everyone was like 'OMGGGGGGG JESSICA YOU.. YOU.. YOU..!!!' so drama sia! HA! anyway it was funfunfun! talktalktalk! sadly, band members could only stay until 9.25am then we had to head towards bandroom. sian ._.

 

orientation performance. even though it was fun looking at the sec1s, i rmb i was one of them last year. HA! but our playing sucked. really suck. you know the Variations from the Caribbean thingy piece, theres one part where there 4 flats. i did practiced, but at a really slower tempo. so i couldn't play.. and i just fake tru. haiyo. hahah! :/ 

 

sectionals today was fun! wheeeeeeeeeeee.. like finally. HAHAH! aww, i was shock+sad when sharlyn mentioned about them graduating in just a few months. :[

 

omg, i begin to like band.. just a lil. HA! you know why?! I AM COUNTED AS A SENIOR, IN SENIOR BAND, AND IMMA GONNA HAVE JUNIORS! its like a whole new experience, and i can't wait for it! :)

 

ooooohoooo, so happy today. even though im very tired. HEHEH, gonna sleep early tonight!