I feel so numb right now. Feel so sad.

 

Was alright before listening to the recordings. We sounded so gooooooood. So wasted.

 

Whats wrong? We worked, we did not get what we deserve.

 

Hearing about what

Our actual score is 94, after deduction 84.6

Actual timing is 8min20.5sec, in which 2 sec was reverb

The comments of the people, esp those we wrote on sgbandfusion

 

Its crushing me more inside.

 

 

I loveloveloveee the posing scene for This Is Love, and when the princes were slowing moving their way to fight the trees, all of them looked so dashing! So cool!

 

Our class dance rocks so much, I've been watching the video over and over again. Credits go to ShuJian for taking the video! Imagine him holding the cam for 10 minutes plus, its not easy okay!

Today, is the announcement of the audition result.

 

Sitting down there, waiting for Mr.BT to break the news.. was the most nerve wrecking experience I have ever encounter. I put my hands together, praying to God that I will work very hard be it in band or studies. I could feel my legs turning jelly-like, and my whole body shaking. Even my teeth are chattering.

 

Flutes, all in. And right after flutes, its the clarinets. He point to Weilin, WeiXiang, Sharlyn and said, 'In'. Next he pointed to QianYi, Demi. He almost forgot YuQing. "Okay now I am only left with the sec 2s.' Then he pointed to me, 'Jessica, you are in..' I almost had trouble standing up. As I walk to the side, I broke into tears.

 

Yes, I cried. Because.. because.. the feeling was just so indescribable. After months of working your lungs out, all the ups and downs, all the efforts and energy, all the time and hardwork, all the conflicts and unhappiness, all the scoldings and tears.. we weren't even comfirmed we were in SYF. As we wait for Mr.BT to announce the names, I was afraid. I was afraid all my efforts would go down the drain. I was afraid I won't be able to join the rest of the band on stage on 31 march. I was afraid I can't get into SYF.

 

I am in. Thank God.

 

 

To those are not, especially my best friend Candice, d.o.n.t  g.i.ve  u.p. Do your best during the March hols practice, I am sure Mr.BT can see it. CherYuen and Grace,  jiayou! I hope everyone in the clarinet section would be able to make it.

 

 

 

 

What Speed said is right, write my unhappiness on a piece of paper and dump it.

 

Or like what my MUOQI said, count 1-100 when I am angry, preventing myself from doing anything rash.

 

Love Or Bread

 

awww.. LOVE IT. LOVEEE ITTTTT!!!!~ (ACTUALLY THE PICTURES ARE A LOT CLEARER!)

 

I can't resist the temptation, imma gonna buy Love Or Bread discs tomorrow! Arrr, but I dont think I will have time to watch. Band have been veryyy busy nowadays, its gonna be tougher in time to come. Plus I have a geog test this tuesday which I am going to chiong, as I'v most likely flung my math and science test. *sigh* Actually I am a lot more worried about my hcl test, because I'v been doing very badly, be it CA or SA. *big big sigh*

 

Anyway! Went to J8 with Lyn and SiYa. FUNFUNFUN. Watched K-20 *stares at Lyn Loke Yu Ning* okayokay lah, not bad not bad. But the from part was reallyreallyyy borinnnggg~ Funny ar, we kick a big fuss from choosing the type of food to sneak into the cinema, to which floor de toilet to 'sheshe', to what type of present to buy for meiping, to who is going to pay the taxi far (1 quater? a third? half? you treat lah!) HAHAHAHAAA. :)

 

Lyn was the first to leave. Left me and Siya, mei you yi qi. JKJK! O_* But when we leaving J8 we saw Lyn angrily walk pass us.. ????? I thought she left for 30 mins already whats she doing here? Buey Song + Monster-Like look on her face. Scary sia. On the way back on the taxi, farneyyy ar. I kept dropping the pictures ( ^^^above^^^) and we kept argueing on who was gonna pay the taxi fare. To SiYa, you very ngiao sia, $802.70 a month, help me buy some stuffs and pay taxi fare also cannot. Bleh. And when the taxi auntie ask to turn left or right, I kept screwing up. ._. Left Right fen bu qing. HAHAHAHAAA!

 

Back at home, celebrated Auntie Peggy and Auntie Lucia's birthday. (Good neighbours) They are still drinking wine and partying along the corrider now. Pictures tommorow!

First, I don't hate Speed. And I don't hate what he did. I just can't be bothered. Its over, let it be, and we are still a class. But yes, I do blame him. It's PARTLY his fault. (This is for Claire) People might be blaming me, as this won't help in the class bonding thingy, 'you want to keep the class bonded and there you are blaming other ppl. i don't see how this is trying to bond together.' I never said that. (This is for Claire again) Well, the truth is, I dont care about the class bonding, I don't like it Ms.Yeo threatening us, that we must bond if not shes gonna leave. All I want is Ms.Yeo to stay.