When I strayed from God, a friend of mine called me. And I joined her church, even got baptised with them. My friend is called Ng You Qian.

 

(picture taken when we were p5/p6 *brain cant recall*)

 

God sent me this friend. When I had no church to go, she was there. :D

 

 

The rest were my sis, and church friends!

 

Once again I strayed, haven't been going to church for 5 months. Sigh. BUT I WILL BE JOINING THEM THIS FRIDAY! For Cafe Night(?) Anyway, kind of look forward to it. :]

 

Sorry can't go for Lionel's birthday party because of it.

 

And sorry again to Claire, I need to thumb drive to transfer the picters from my laptop to my comp. Gonna post after my father comes back home okay?! Will update later..

Its not cliched, I really do miss band.

 

After tuesday, everyday after school I was wondering where I should go. Ended up slacking awayy~ Find my life so meaningless now, no goal, nothing to make me look forward to. As I got used to the hectic lifestyle, its gone. Maybe thats just life.

 

I remembered how much I hated going to band, finding it a waste of time. Should be joining my friends to play instead of  blowing the same thing over and over again. Full band, sectionals, individuals = sian, sian, sian. I remembered how much I wanted to quit band 2 months before SYF, just because of 'something'.  I am glad, very glad, that I did not. Thank you everyone who was trying to convince me not to. Esp what Xenia said, "Of cos you won't like track, because you like band." That was what changed my mind.

 

I remembered one day I brought all my books to school and left it there, and did not bring my bag home for a long period of time.. Because everyday after band I was as good as a dead person, whats the point? So I went to school everyday with just myself in green uni and a pink water bottle. HaHaHa. I remembered the day before Amksian family, I was in band when it came to my mind that I left the T-shirt in my bag, in class. I rushed down to my class to get it when JiaYan was debriefing. Thats school life during the SYF period.

 

I remembered how much I hated the leaders because they wanted us to come down everyday for band. I said 'fuck' while JiaYan was nagging, and she said why not tell her in her face. I remembered how much I hated the naggings of the leaders, my SL Sharlyn, teachers, BT. I remembered myself giving attitude because I felt so fucked up. I remembered myself screaming at Andy just because he asked if I was okay, but I later apologised because Shi Zheng was staring at me. Thats how much I used to hate band.

 

But just 1 week or 2 before SYF, I stopped being mad at everybody else, I stopped being mad at myself going band. Actually I enjoyed the late night practices in the school hall, and my mum said she could hear us from my house. I started to like the music we were making, esp when Mr.Bt was dancing around on the podium, I cannot help my but laugh.. end up getting stares from the sec 4s. I remember how QianYi and I managed to entertain ourselves, when we were being accused or felt unhappy about something. I started to love band, love the process.

 

The day before SYF, we played very well. The day of SYF, we played very well. On stage, we played very well. I told MUOQI I would tiptoe when I am nervous, but I couldn't on stage because my legs were shaking. When playing open G, I saw my fingers shaking too. OMFG calm down man. While walking off the stage I was afriad I would fall because I was wearing HIGH heels. I remember holding QianYi's hand while waiting for the result. 'Ang Mo Kio Band...' The was suspense was killing me. And 'Gold.' I asked myself, is it over? Yes, its over, it marks the end of  the SYF.

 

 

 

And now I am missing band.