(this was posted ytd)

alright, alright, im finally posting, cos many ppl are begging me to post. hais, bt hes nt one of thm? bt thn agn, why bother? he doesnt read my space in the first place! k, so nw, im telling YOU, who is reading my space right nw, wad are the things tht are happning in my life.

first, lets tlk abt band. bandbandband, whn you read the word band, wad comes into ur mind? music, instruments, air? hm, and  wad does drills gt to to with it, nth? and yet, we are standing under the hot sun for 3 hours, practicing our drills tougher thn the uniform grps?! hey, are we having drills tht tough jus to prove to others tht we are much betr thn oth ppl? betr thn uniform grps? if thts so, wads the point? you guys are killing ea and everyone out thr, killing our interest in band. sigh, i knw its bout discipline, to make us more united, and blablabla things like tht. all the gd points. bt does it hve to be tht way? sometimes i do wonder if the seniors hve actually gone trough drills. thr are some things tht cnot be done, if nt, give us a solution. nt jus push and push and push which results in nth. an example, chenning, was abt to vomit and faint, had her face all turned pale. yet, she was forced, i repeat, forced, to remain in the squat, under the hot sun. wad does it hlps? make her more sick, or closer to our ONE SOLID BANG? i believe any parents out thr who see tht scene would immediately ask their son or daughters to quit. wad right do we have, wad should we do, except for renrenren, and start to hate band and all th ones who hate treated us so badly. and agn, wad hlp does it make, for us to run rounds and rounds, pumps aft pumps, and standing under the hot sun to do our drills? will it be more perfect? will we do betr? will we try to do our best? WE WILL, we really will, bt WE CNT! thts the prob, WE CNT, CNT, i repeat, CNT. we tried, we really did. i guess i dnt hve to explain why we cnt, you urself shld knw. im tired, im sick. im sooooo sick of drills. tht even makes me dnt wna go band, dnt wna turn up. hw long must i endure? im starting to hate band, I HATE BAND, I HATE DRILLS.

nxt, studies. results. sucksucksuck. so wad?! so wad if i gt 5th in class? 9th in whole lvl? it sucks! in fact, this sch sucks! the standard sucks! i nida buck up..

and another thing, i cnt gt over you. i tried, bt i failed. i tried using a year time to forgt you, bt i cnt. i hfen seen you for a long time, even a glimpse of you would be very satisfying. sigh* lets nt tlk bout you, it would only make me miss you more.

tuesday thr would be a 5 and a hlf hrs of drills. i might as well jus die thr.

drills is getting tougher ea and evryday.