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7月31日 -KKH-Felt very faint at GP, my BP lower than 70.
Drop the water for me(needles, ouch!) and called the ambulance, then i was sent to KK Hospital. 7月26日 -Feeling Horrible, Terrible, Vegetable-When to 2 different clinic, add together 100 over dollars,
11 different medicines, eat until i blurblur gong dai dai.
Thursday and Friday was fever, cough, sore throat. Yesterday
was the worst! Vomitted 2 times. My stomach couldn't stop
churning but i couldn't puke either, the feeling was terrible.
The second time i used a chopstick to poke my throat, and i
puked. There was nothing much to puke actually, as i haven't
eaten anything for the whole day. Felt better for awhile and when
to sleep..
Woke up and felt nausea again! Mummy wante to bring me to KK
hospital but Papa brought me to a 24 hours clinic in YiShun. Hm..
Gastric ulcers, gastric flu, phlegm in stomach, germs in stomach..
I have to take 8 pills everytime after lunch. But i am feeling much
better now. 7月18日 -This State-Why am i cursing all guys on earth? Why am i guarding
my heart against them?
Why MR? Why him in the first place? Why for 3 years i
am never able to let go? Why for 3 years my prayers aren't
answered?
What an insensitive, loud, rough girl i've become? Why am i
so cold and harsh to everyone around me? Why can't
i recognise myself?
Why MR? Why because of a guy?
Why did i end up in this state? -Dearest Muoqi-I read CN's blog.
Yes, you don't understand me. You really don't. Maybe
because i am too much of a show, like what i told Andy.
There are many sides to me, you will never know.
You asked why am i always so hyper around my friends.
And i am sorry i made you feel lousy about yourself. I
like them, my PPG friends. Maybe because they are like
me. Maybe because they don't have a clue who i am. I am
always so crazy around them, and like you've said, hyper and
bubbly. But then again, is this just another show?
I made the gap, i am sorry. You could feel it, sometimes we
got along really well and suddenly everything went wrong.
Maybe i don't like you afterall, you are too girlish and i can't
stand it. You belong to the act cool the type of girls that i do not
like; fringe falling all over your face, wear short skirts, fold
socks, twit on msn. But right after my best friend Candice, it's you,
Muoqi. We are such good friends and i don't understand why.
Then, another problem surfaced. You told me you feel for WX
and suddenly i am.. lost. It isn't jealousy that i am feeling. During
full band you would flirt with him and i had to sit beside you. I
felt sick.
I wish i could tell you why i ended up in this state, what happened to
me in the past, why i am behaving and treating you this way. And what
a weirdo i've become.
Lastly, i am sorry you are not allowed in this Space. -CIP- My PPG friends
My group members were,
Myself, TsaeHwa, WanQing, ChuYuNing, JunPing, Brandon and Clarence. Efficient leh, collected the most stuffs. Reason being.. i was the leader
HAHAHA. Really got to see the better side of them. Esp the boys, esp
Brandon. I was awed. My class boys are not that bad after all, perhaps
i shouldn't be so insensitive, and cold to them. 7月16日 -What A (to)Day-Was angry, really angry, maybe i should use another
word-infuriated, when Sheila refused to USE HEART
to help me with ONE math sum.
Was even exasperated with myself as i still couldnt
solve the one mere sum despite many tries.
I knew my face was darn black during math, i can't
help it, and everyone avoided me like a plague. Even
the tcher.
p/s: Sharlyn said hi to me and asked me what happened..
HAHAHA.
During band, worst,
In the past, when i was unhappy with Sharlyn, i could always turn and ask you for help. You allowed me to confide in you, you shared your experiences with me, and we used to chat for hours on msn. You taught me the correct embouchure, changed my awful mouthpiece to a better one, corrected my mistakes, sent me tons of band and clarinet musics to help change my tone. During the holidays, you pulled me down to have individuals as early as 7am, made me last for 16 counts, made me push the amount of air that i never knew i could. You told me my embouchure was wrong, made me lower my jaw, flatten my chin, directed my air downwards.You made me improve rapidly-my tone, techniques. My passion for band, it overflowed during those times..
I thought you did more than what my SL did, helped me in areas my SL couldn't, she did not understand.. Simply because you listened to me, and you trusted my words. You put yourself in my shoes and tried to solve my problems. But now its no longer the same. You are not the same anymore. I remember telling you the day when they announced you were the DM, thats i congrats you and felt happy for you, as you had always shared with me how you wished you could bring the band to a higher level, but i reminded you to stay true, the true you, and not change for the worst when you are so high there..
I treasured those times when we had individuals together, when you worked very hard together with me to surpass CN, when you were just like one of us, the secondary 2 Ang Wei Xiang not DM nor SL. But now i no longer find it possible, too many complicated things involved. The way CN treated you, even if you did not catch it i think you can feel it too. I told you before, i am not like her. I don't see a need to poke your cheek, laugh cheerfully, trying to be funny. I do things differently, you know it, maybe that was why we got along better. But now i can't help but feel you are biased. Other than that, you don't listen to me anymore. Plus, you don't have time. You no longer can help me, solve my problems, share thoughts on msn, and let me be dependent on you, and the way things used to be..
I should grow up. I am a sec 2 now, and shouldn't depent on you anymore. I solve my own problems and motivate myself now. Maybe one day i will find a junior like myself, and tell them i had a great senior. Things are different now, and people change.
It's okay.
Leaders crapped to us, sec2s, for hours. -Yesterday-Yesterday was fun, in class i mean, despite my previous
post.
Role playing King of Fighter-*punch punch! kick kick*,
planning on how to trick Ms. Karim & L, sitting on
the arm chair and being pushed around the classroom
corridor by my friends, role playing O lvl's Oral Exam~
My PPG friends always guarantee lot of fun, namely..
Jessica-Blossom
Lyn-Bubbles
Sheila-Buttercup
(edited)And Michelle, ops!
And i saw sweet thing many times that day .. :] 7月15日 -Too Much Nerves-I felt sucky in band because of ChenNing, i shouldn't even
be feeling that way. But she's way too much, and seriously
getting on my nerves.
Kind of cheered towards the end. Ignored her throughout
the day.
Her 3 books are still with me, urgh. 7月12日 -ydna-I woke up at 12 this afternoon
Wondering why i could confide in him more than
in anyone else. Chatted all the way to 4am.
And i slept like a pig after that.
-Stalkers and Pictures-When i check, i never fail to find some psychopaths reading my arhives. And when i clicked on what they were reading (there's a link to it), it always reminds me that the pictures in the post are all messed up.
It pissed me off.
I've decided. I am going to re-upload all the pictures, and make sure i rename them before i do. Urgh. 7月9日 -ICP Pictures-(All captions by Weilin/Yuqing)
go these sites for more pictures: www.amkss-clarinets.blogspot.com / www.onemorechance--.blogspot.com
 K.O. too much talking by Danny.
 Look at jessica. Hahaha sleep until like that.
 J: What'cha looking at?!
 J: They look at me like that, i don't friend them alr.
   Practicing before the performance
 ^^ Ah xiang teaching Jes.
(i was complaining to him about my embouchure)
 Whole section without..
 Bass Clars, WL & WX
 Fail
 With MUOQI 1
 With MUOQI 2
 With QianYi 1
 With QianYi 2
 With Demi
 With YuQing
 My 50 bucks tag
 Lastly, with Candice
 My Best Friend!
she has got a musician look yeah?!? -Dear Ms. Karim-Just when i said i am going to be a good girl, i
am getting on my teacher's nerves again.
So often after lessons, after the teacher had left,
we would head to the toilet. I wonder why
this time Ms. Yeo had to report to Ms. Karim..
the worst choice huh?
It has been so long since i was punish to stand
outside the class. Fun.
We had to write crappy reflections instead of
getting 2 demerit points. What a hassle. And guess
what we wrote?
We shoot her back like nobody's business, talking
about how she did not discipline her form class as they
were doing the same, talking about how we could not
control our bladder and how we would trouble the auntie
if we pee in class. HAHAHA.
It made my day! Just love irritating the teachers and
lauging at their disgusted expressions. Woots! 7月7日 -Highlight of the day: Rock Band at Claire's House-Waited till 7.15am before i headed for school, was damn disappointed in the end. GG ._. (just found out the meaning
of that word from JunPing.. my class guys damn cute always like to use that word. actually its the short form of the same word i always use when i am losing a fight in RS.)
School was.. COPYHOMEWORKCOPYHOMWORK!!! CI
period chiong Math, Recess time chiong Chinese, English
period chiong Home Econs. Okay, its just me. When its Math period, i copy Chinese homework, which is the next period. Then during Chinese period, I copy English homework. Then during English period, i copy.. and the list goes on. I guess this explains why i am always not listening in class. (Besides sleeping, which is another reason.) After school when Claire's house to play Rock Band! Miss
those times! Tgt with Candice, Xenia, Lyn and SiYa. Was upset
with the guitar because the keys were getting harder and harder
to press each time. Urgh!!! Had loads of fun and laughter in Claire's
room when i kept asking them if my lips were swollen and chapped.
Hahaha i don't think you guys get it and i ain't gonna elaborate.
I've got to stop it. No more shits. And i will stay cool in class. Stop falling for guys. And i am determined to work hard! 7月6日 -ICP Esplanade Performance-What i should say? Yeah its grand, its my first time
performing there, its Esplanade anyway. But i dont think
we sounded our best, i admit i didnt very well myself. I
felt that we sounded better during the rehersal, though my
air kept leaking cos my lips cannot tahan; hahaha complaint
a whole lot to AhXiang in the dressing room. Plus,
its our last time performing with the sec4s, wont get to
see them around anymore. Sighs. For some reasons.
Wait, i thought i changed the permission setting and no
one can access to this site? Can you guys still read this?
7月3日 -A Normal Day in School-Slept through most of my lessons. Jae had to
wake me up every few minutes to copy science
notes. In the end i really fell a sleep, for like 15
minutes, sweet.. But Jae woke me up because
they were having group work. Argh!
Mrs. Ang was understanding, saying she knew
i had a late night. But in the end she said, students
in band shouldn't use that as an excuse. Ar?
Surprisingly, i was looking forward to band practice.
Fun. But my lips were giving away, even WeiXiang's.
He stopped on me during 'Over the Rainbow' when he
knew i could not continue. But his solid sound was always
beside me, even during the performance. What a talented
guy. -AYG Performance-2 July 2009
Released at 12.45. The 1 hour full band practice was
... Demi and Grace cried. Mr.Tan scolded the Clarinet
Section and everyone was having moodswing. I was very
pekcek myself. Changing, lunch, moving of instruments
and all was a rush. But the performance was..
Awesome!
We totally rocked the stage! We played really
well for The Wizard of Oz (i can hear myself
beside WeiXiang, and the whole Clarinet Section!),
people were dancing away, even Mr.Tan, for Asian
Selections. Standing ovation, cool! For once, it was
the music, what a experience! We were dancing away
when Victoria played, and the audience were enjoying
themselves more than the boys on stage. But I believe
it was still us who made them high.
Reached home 10.33PM. Totally enjoyed myself.
-Drills in the Dark-1 July 2009
It was damn fun doing drills in the dark. We managed
to do our dressings well even when we could not see a
single thing. WeiXiang sure can come up with some
really cool/weird ways of doing things. Becoming Grace
huh. Hahaha. |
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